When the shots rang out All I heard was rain on my windowsill In the passing days Before the blood dried There was all this will You can share a picture And show how much you care To be shot in the back While you are running away To be fat and scared Saddest man running I have ever seen Who's gonna stand a chance I wouldn't have, no one ever would When your fate lies in the hands Of a black heart hanging inside To be so proud in your hateful form Big grown man, small as an ant It's a long ride home This year from the pride parade And the streetlights shine Onto soft skin and young lovers' wills Who you gonna tell who to love When everyone's just trying To feel alright Since I was a kid I have fought A darkness I would never shake When there is so little left to feel But from the touch Of the one you trust It is a long life To be handled like old shoes And they are all these kids All these kids I never knew