I haven't Been home in far too long I'm way too scared try to go Would you even pick up the phone If I rang home Oh If I take away myself Will the voices go as well (will you) Won't you just give me the space and the time that I need Just this night What does life look like if it's not in my hands They tell me I'll be fine but I just stare Convince myself that maybe I'm aware I've got no plans (I got nowhere to be) Oh I swear I feel alone when everyone's around me They're just reminders of the things I could be So I keep my head on my phone Hope this feeling might go Maybe someday I'll call I haven't Been home in far too long I'm way too scared try to go Would you even pick up the phone If I rang home Oh If I take away myself Will the voices go as well Won't you just give me the space and the time that I need Just this night If I pick at the pieces I'd let myself go Singing my downfall like I'm a tritone Cover my eyes I'm holding a rifle If I go down let it be a light show I can't depend on me not a patronage I might have to turn a page Regret only turns to rage I petrify myself so I don't sleep at night I've been lost been dreaming of barricades Won't be long before I see better days Least tell myself that they aren't too far away Please don't be far away I haven't Been home in far too long You know I'm way too scared try to go Would you even Would you I've been losing my mind lately I gotta fight so I don't lose my whole body And if I'm gone is it better for you and me The boat's gon' sink I don't think I'll evacuate I've been losing my mind lately Don't wanna fight so I don't have my mind with me Too late to fix it now I'm sinking down Is the water calm I'll fall