Better than it ever was
Better now than then
And I
Telling me that I need you
What an ugly thing to do
I'm going out again
Change my heart and break my mind
Crumple to the floor and cry
I'm going out again
And I think that I will be petulant about the time
And I feel well within rights to do so
And I feel like I can be cromulent some of the time
And I am feeling prouder and looser
I can sense it in my veins
I can hear it in my brain
I'm going down again
I don't want for there to be
This much volatility
I'm going out and I may never come in
And I feel solipsistic and afraid some of the time
And I feel effervescent and lonely
And I feel like an anxious anchor weight most of the time
And I feel powerless to control me
And I'm a paragon of honesty some of the time
And I can hard emote if it wills me
And I want to be everybody's friend all of the time
And I think that one day it will kill me
Better than it ever was
Better now than then
Better than it ever was
Better in the end