Just checking in Can't say much for you obviously I'm sure you know that just as well as me I've been there too I mean that honestly It's so reductive to say how I feel (And it's not productive to tell you how I feel) So I don't speak even when I need (So I don't say shit, don't say shit, and I know you know it) I'm sure you know that just as well as me (Just as well it's me, take you back to hell with me) You've been there through it all right next to me (I know things don't go right) And I know it sounds like Just checking, How you feeling? I know, nothing I can't heal it Up I feel your weight off my chest Comfort trapped confinement Year I spent in womb I died in Year I spent in awe what life is Leashed on cord that birthed me Take my worthy Take me back to (purgatory) (Leave what made me to reform me) Year I spent in room my angel guided Out the door my core in violence Me amore my empty space deep Shallow dome osmoses into white sheets New people, nice teeth Good taste Long tongue No feet Second year post-post-post-post-partum I leave And I hate it like I always did Succeed like I always did Out of spite Out of anger In the night Out of sacrifice fantasy I can see Clear in the dark So I keep my eyes closed and my ears ringing Back in bed that squeaks when I breath Cold with no snake to suffocate All to put my palm where the pipe leaks Let you drown when I leave Weigh me down with that guilt and resent Running thick in thin blood And I promise it's no one's fault And I promise it's no one's fault I can feel your short of breath from my room I can hear the ticks you didn't used to have In this house we're shutting down I was checking in I'm chipping now