I woke up surprised and disappointed To find out I was still me, Last night should've killed me. Took a shower couldn't scrub it off Tried to scream, I could only cough I can't trust myself to be my own friend. Exhausted by the effort it takes to breathe, The Whole world is against me That's what I belive, Don't waste your empathy on me I'm through puttin one foot in front of the other I'm do wanna run for cover From the moment I wake up til I'm Starin at the ceiling trying to sleep I wonder if I have a soul to keep. Voices in my head will not turn off There's a heavy weight on top Of my chest today, I don't want it to go away because, The moment I let down my guard, Life will hit me twice as hard My mistake, I thought I could have Just one day off From pushing boulders up steep hills, Playin in traffic for cheap thrills I don't know what to do That's why I'm tellin you that Sometimes there's nothing on my mind But everything at one time Find me sliding backwards down To where I don't want to be found Stop with these tests give me some rest My heart is beating right out of my chest I do believe I have a soul to keep.