Nihilistic, hold my breath I'm catatonic in my bed Living off of borrowed money Like I deserve it Wonder why nobody wants me As if I've earned it yet I don't wanna waste your time I don't wanna make excuses anymore But I can't keep from crying I'm sorry I can't come out I really hate myself right now Gonna turn it all around, but not tonight I'm sorry I let you down You should tape over my mouth I'm gonna wear you out Without even trying Self-reflective to a fault I'm always anxious when you call I'm not who I wanna be yet And I don't want you to see me if I'm less than pеrfect I don't wanna waste your time I don't wanna make excuses anymore But I can't keep from crying I'm sorry I can't come out I really hate myself right now Gonna turn it all around, but not tonight I'm sorry I let you down You should tape over my mouth I'm gonna wear you out Without even trying Shake the voices as they plague my mind I see it playing over again, sixty times Wish I could just forget it, bet you wish I would But I can see you clearly and I'm catching up