All this time I've been alive I have counted up the hours And they don't seem to add up I think you took them away from me And don't say that you didn't And don't tell me I'm an ungratful son When I chose to be in it How do you decide who gets the blessing and who gets the curse I wanna know I wanna know I've been trying to decide if I'm the best or if I'm the worst you've ever known You've ever known And be not afraid Be still and know that I am God When I walked on the water and the storms came in Did you know I was sinking How do you decide who gets the blessing and who gets the curse I wanna know I wanna know I've been trying to decide if I'm the best or if I'm the worst you've ever known You've ever known Oh whoa oh Oh oh oh Oh whoa oh Oh oh oh I've been trying hard to be the son you wanted But I don't have it in my body I guess you'll have to carry me How did you decide that I was worth it and that I'm deserving of such sweet sacrifice I wanna know After all of this time I've been cursing your name since the day I was alive