I fought too hard to numb the pain
I just can't risk going back again
Existing in delusion
Just can't find the solution
There's no solution, I grind my teeth to dust
Because I'm sick of always acting so tough
This cloud of misery hanging over my head
Has got me screaming for the end
Has got me screaming from the rafters
Let's not forget, let's not pretend
This sinking feeling in my chest
Has got me a panic away from death
Some days I lack the motivation to get up onto my feet
Some days I can't see straight so I miss what's happening
These lines in front of my blur
These sounds erupt as if everything is trying to be heard
I cannot live, I cannot die
These thoughts are like having razors in your brain
I just cannot see fucking why
Can't stop the bleeding, can't stop the pain
I fought too hard to numb the pain
I just can't risk going back again
Existing in delusion
Just cant find the solution
There's no solution, I grind my teeth to dust
Because I'm sick of always acting so tough
This cloud of misery hanging over my head
Has got me screaming for the end
Has got me screaming from the rafters
Let's not forget, let's not pretend
This sinking feeling in my chest
Has got me a panic away from death
Losing my grip, my mind slips
I slip back into a state of dissociation
Escape the panic, escape the stress
I just can't deal with the world, the paranoia just won't rest
I cannot live, I cannot die
I've been awake for days
My body's giving out and I feel ashamed
My mind is buckling from the weight
The paranoia is in my veins