I watch you tear me open
And you say it doesn't have to be this way
And I know I must be leaving
You say it doesn't have to be this way
I'm leaving
Same reasons
And I don't know what's gonna happen
Sometimes the train sounds like the ocean
When I'm asleep and leaving town
I close my eyes and notice all the worst things
Sometimes your steps sound like a freight train
As I am lost and on the tracks
I close my eyes and realize we're further away
And now a few times a year, I can't fall asleep
Without a pill down my throat
It takes some weight off of my feet
And I don't know what's gonna happen
When I was 18, I swore I'd never
But ten years has a way of teaching
Now I'm learning
That if I want to sleep
There's some things I can't keep to myself
And if I want to leave
There's some things I can't keep
And I don't know what's gonna happen
When I was 18 I swore I'd never
Take any pills to keep it together
And I told my father that I'd be stronger
That I'd find a way to do this no longer
Now I'm 28, ten years to the day
That I left for college to find a new calling
Now I'm in my bedroom apartment in Brooklyn
And I'm in full panic and I think I've had it
And I think you've had it
And we're further away