Cigarettes and alcohol Well I'll take those to my grave But I've added adderall Columbian cocaine So long well here I go Well I'd do just anything To make my mind up dear Well I'm going insane So stab me in the back Cause I kinda like the pain Find your reasons to go And not your reasons to stay And I hoped you'd find yourself Cause I can't do everything And now you did And I can't do anything Well I hope your proud of me Cause I made some friends today And as I fade to grey Well I'm still your enemy Well I tried to find some help But they're never here for me So I'll find some new friends in the shape Of ounces and grams And one day I'll see the light Through these dark days I'm sure But right now I'm feeling good And I'm numb to my core So stab me in the back Cause I kinda like the pain Find your reasons to go And not your reasons to stay And I hoped you'd find yourself Cause I can't do everything And now you did And I can't do anything Well I hope your proud of me Cause I made some friends today And as I fade to grey Well I'm still your enemy My bad darling I'm sorry But life just ain't fair And I can't be someone I'm not And you can't hang from what's not there We had a good run but It just ain't in the cards So don't run my name in the dirt Don't go and take it so hard So stab me in the back Cause I kinda like the way You found your reasons to go Ain't gonna beg you to stay And I hoped you'd find yourself Cause I can't do everything And now you did And I can't do anything Well I hope your proud of me Cause I made a choice today And as we go our way Well there's nothing left to say