Many a nights I felt alone And I was zoning by myself Many a nights I felt That I could find No help from no one else Many a times while I was Grinding Man I swear I thought I'd crack Weight of the world all on my Shoulder Thought my fuckin back would Snap Many a nights nights nights Thought about life life life Many a nights nights nights Searching for light light light Many a nights Many a nights Many a nights Many a nights Lil did you know That life was always beating my Ass Problems stacking up And it was More than just me needing some Cash Relationships wasn't worth shit So I was always leaving fast While I stayed still,Niggas made Mills And I saw life speeding past Told the truth when others lyin Thru the pain I keep a smile When It ain't easy to Be strong And everybody be relying On you like you ain't got flaws So in God who i confined in Darkness could be so seductive But needed some light to vibe in Understand my story Many came before me With the same demons as me And ended up with no glory Ain't trying to see that So tonight i seize that Catch a flight and tell my loved Ones That I'll be back Many a nights nights nights Thought about life life life Many a nights nights nights Searching for light light light Many a nights Many a nights Many a nights Many a nights Many of nights I spent some Hours with my pen up on this Paper Like my darg it's taking ages Sometimes I be needing hemp And many of nights i spent some Hours I've been struggling with Sleep And you know I don't like to Speak Without this music feeling weak But somehow I Overcame these demons you Know I try All these thoughts get deeper by The nighttime Got me questioning what's this Life's like What this life's like Money n hoes Money n clothes It doesn't matter as long as Money's involved tell you my Cons tell you my pros Tired of the ifs and the buts and The sos Nights like this I've seen so many Now they see the bully fa all Those time I've been so friendly Many a nights I felt alone And I was zoning by myself Many a nights I felt That I could find No help from no one else Many a times while I was Grinding Man I swear I thought I'd crack Weight of the world all on my Shoulder Thought my fuckin back would Snap Many a nights nights nights Thought about life life life Many a nights nights nights Searching for light light light Many a nights Many a nights Many a nights Many a nights Many a nights Felt like the bottom They say life is borrowed Nothing is really yours Not even heart break or the Sorrow Nothing is ever promised The pressure you endure Choices make you who you are So much advice I never followed Ou I done spent so many nights Feeling hopeless And broken Awaiting the moment of truth I done spent so many nights Wondering about destiny Waiting for something to prove It I barely had any trust in religion And God And I ended up closer to lose 'em Kindness was taken for weakness I'm losing the characteristics that Make me a human Dark nights I had plenty of Big dream big risk Big dilemma cuz Pops too old to work Depending on Me To provide for my lineage Heartbreak Got intense Ain't quite Been the Same old me since Money been tight like virgin lips Life is finite carpe diem I spent Too many nights full of sorrow Trying to escape what don't Know yet Too much red in my call log, Yeah But not enough brown in my Fuck it I gotta get back to myself And stop looking for something to fill the void Plan out tomorrow, remember How far I got left, then I scrap it And get annoyed Hit up my shordy and tell her to Link cause I'm horny she treat Me like Babyboy Love me then hate me but still Reply I slide on that WAP like a Remyboy A lot of the time I get in this Space Revolving round all the flaws in Me And my thoughts take every Potential result, replace em with What could go wrong for me Far from being the nigga that got It on lock, cause that nigga lost The key Scared to lose the applause and Be labelled a fraud, lets keep it Tween y'all and me Cause honestly Too many nights full of sorrow Trying to escape what don't Know yet Too much red in my call log, Yeah But not enough brown in my Many a nights I felt alone And I was zoning by myself Many a nights I felt That I could find No help from no one else Many a times while I was Grinding Man I swear I thought I'd crack Weight of the world all on my Shoulder Thought my fuckin back would Snap Many a nights nights nights Thought about life life life Many a nights nights nights Searching for light light light Many a nights Many a nights Many a nights Many a nights