Won't clean the sheets because they smell like you Don't wanna let the light in, don't need the sun peaking through Won't move the books that lay crooked on my shelf Wanna keep it all the same I wanna keep you all to myself You're out of my life Yet still I find my eyes searching you For years I haven't moved And if you were to call then I'd quiet the whole room Tell the birds in the trees and the cars in the streets To hush And leave the two of us The sound of you is enough I'll take whatever's left my love Don't wanna go out long as I'm missing you Not much to my surprise this Christmas Like the rest of the year was blue Didn't even put a tree up, don't it seem strange? Third year in a row You know I was never that way The fridge notes that you'd write My hair the way you like I've kept it all But the only thing that's wrong Is I've grown numb to the pain It's what I deserve to feel again I won't say it out loud For it all just amounts to dust A blessing and a curse That's the story of us Keep it to ourselves We don't bring it up For closure kneels to love And love bows down to trust So I hope before you come to know My letter finds you first