Nikki, where are you when I need you
Miss you more than ever before
Saw your body in a casket wearing clothes I've never seen you in before
Nik, you still believe in Jesus
Like the way you did when we were kids
Yeah, I'm not sure if I still do, but I'm not sure if I ever did
And I wonder if I could have
Helped you feel a little bit better
I thought that getting older
Would help you feel a little bit better
Nikki, I could have been there for you but I never know what to say
Guess that you must have been joking when you said you were doing okay
And I wonder if I could have
Helped you feel a little bit better
I thought that getting older
Would help you feel a little bit better
But it's way too late
When I was five we used to fight these made up aliens in our backyard
But you were a little bit older than me
And as we grew up, you told me that they didn't exist anymore
That was when I first felt like I was getting old
I couldn't see all the magic in the world anymore
And we still remained close for a couple more years
But we slowly diverged in what we were interested
You stopped going to church so I stopped going too
You spent more time in your room, alone
I didn't think you were happy
Because you didn't seem happy but I didn't know how to help
If I picked up the phone last Friday right
When you called in the middle of the night
It was weird and I didn't know why you would call
And I was hanging out with some friends I hadn't seen in a while
But I should have picked up the phone
We could have talked, caught up, and sorted things out
Was I just too scared, or did I just not care enough?
Nikki, I'm sorry
Nikki, I'm sorry
Nikki, I'm sorry
Nikki, I'm sorry
Nikki, I'm sorry
Nikki, I'm sorry
Nikki, I'm sorry
Nikki, I'm sorry
Nikki, I'm sorry
Nikki, I'm sorry
Nikki, I'm sorry
Nikki, I'm sorry
Nikki, I'm sorry
Nikki, I'm sorry
Nikki, I'm sorry