I wanna cut all my body parts off I just wanna be a lump of coal Maybe then i'd have a chance to be of use And still get to destroy this ugly world It looks like my reflection does For now, i'm fading in and out of consciousness Looking for your outline on the wall I can feel the distance grow with every passing day And this cliff's height increasing, ever tall It'd be so easy now to let me fall But you don't like that imagery at all And i just hope you're happy I just hope you're smiling And laughing at somebody's Stupid joke 'Cause i'm stuck in my head again Searching for some estrogen To change into the person That i know Beside myself again, with all i wrote Inside my mind i'll never be this ghost