I'm counting down the minutes, counting down the days Of when I'll finally, someday, feel okay But I wont hold my breath, I fear my lungs might collapse Under the weight of faith and the weight of hopelessness But the feeling will never pass With all this weight on my chest I've lived this last year Loathing Everything I Am I've lost touch with who I used to be I want to sleep with the clouds I want to swim with the stars Maybe then I could heal these scars I've heard it one time, two times, three times before Life gets better and I'm worth so much more And that's fine (That's fine) But I won't waste my fucking time on wishful thinking You don't know the lows I feel most nights I've lived this last year Loathing Everything I Am I've lost touch with who I used to be I want to sleep with the clouds I want to swim with the stars Maybe then I could heal these scars The cycle remains Fuck wishing for better days I've accepted that this is the way life was meant for me Now hold your breath dear, we're going under waves again There's no way out of here, I fear that this may be the end With heads underwater, these are my words I leave for you As my skin gets colder, living in this world without you "Now hold your breath dear, we're going under waves again" There's no way out of here, I fear that this may be the end