I open my mouth, choke down the life soup It's cold 'cause I left it sitting in the kitchen While I cried in the bathroom and still left the truth Alone in the microwave I wish that I could be brave I look in the mirror and all I can see Is the monster I met last night in my dream She had my face, and she had my name Sucked the air from the room just the same My throat is a trash chute My tongue's rotten fruit Breathing in flies all looking for food Expire or aspirate Why must I choose Either way someone here's gonna lose I don't wanna eat I don't wanna eat I don't wanna eat I don't wanna eat I don't wanna eat I don't wanna eat I don't wanna eat I don't wanna eat I don't wanna eat I don't wanna eat I don't wanna I hold my nose, I close my eyes I am afraid of the taste Of all the dead things that I have to swallow To become okay The spit's so acidic, it's burning through my brain I am melting down my drain