I try to give you milk and honey Only dust and flies come out Icky glitter on my eyes A garbage pile inside my mouth I am too quiet to be human And too still to be alive I am not a thing of nature Just an old robot inside And I remember I'm a body That was not taught to be touched And as the walls close in I think about how hard I am to love Not because I am unworthy Because I point a gun At the people who believe in me And follow when I run God didn't make me to be touched She meant me to be cold She meant me to be crushed There's a ball pit in my stomach Where there should be butterflies But I've learned how I can kill them Now they've all been plasticized And they conceal the clowns I swallowed In my sleep when I was four If I cry I will release them I won't have control no more I want to live with tenderness I'm gonna heal my wounds so I can live to hurt her less I want to live with tenderness I'm gonna heal my wounds so I can live to hurt her less I want to live with tenderness I'm gonna heal my wounds so I can live to hurt her less I want to live with tenderness I'm gonna heal my wounds so I can live to hurt her less