If i had one wish
I would rewind time
Take it back to the days way before i was nine and a nigga had a dream that
I could never reach and screams from my pops is all in my blood stream
Fast forward I'm in high school never was the fly dude
Walking through the halls bumping j cole on iTunes
Want to be a rapper while these other niggas trappers
But it never really mattered i could make your brain splatter if you want
I really had my goals but i let it get tainted fucking around with the hoes
I was never really focus was way too open i always felt broken
But yet i was so outspoken when at times I really felt like I'm drowning in the ocean
My heart is hard as metal so now it's causing corrosion
I only started drinking to really help with coping how the fuck you gonna tell me
I'm the mother fucking spokesman's
This is real love
But I swear a lot of times man I just want to kill love
I guess they say that's real love
I never felt real love
But when I look into my daughters eyes i know this is how it's pose to feel love
Do you think know real love
As a nigga getting older im starting to have regret
Cause im about to be thirty and im not living my best
I thought that I would be on with my shawty on my arm
I wish that I could go back and really sound the alarm
Little nigga you gotta do you cause all them fucking YouTube's
You watching aint gonna get you to where the fuck you need to fuck going on dates
Trying to open gates so you ain't gotta walk in life but maybe roll on some skates
But no body ever pushed you and that's the fucking issue
Because you spoke with confidence no body sees the real you
Walking with these open wounds its only you that's healing you
Fuck a loaded gun because its only you that's killing you
Now that I'm a father dawg I got to be better
Lately i been feeling bitter cause i been chasing the cheddar
Cause I do this on my own I ain't never felt at home
Unless I'm living in the chaos my whole life I was shown
And now I'm bringing back the cycle i'm feeling like I'm Michael but this
Pen is my knife and when I write I'm a psycho
If my life was a script i think I found couple typos
Aiming right at the target like I'm a bow and arrow
I feel it in my bone marrow I'm gonna battle the present yeah
From a peasant to a pharaoh ima shift a different gear
Call me jack sparrow i narrow the rivers every where
And try and be better every time we hit a different year
Real love
But I swear a lot of times man I just want to kill love
I guess they say that's real love
I never felt real love
But when I look into my daughters eyes i know this is how it's pose to feel love
Do you think know real love
Sometimes i wanna kill love