And I didn't wanna let you in
I'm fully loaded so I don't try to kiss you
I didn't wanna let you in
I'm fully loaded so I don't try to—
I've been dying since the day that we met (Since the day that we met)
I'ma still smoke my cigarette (My cigarette)
I ain't gonna care about what the future holds (The future)
Why should I when it's out of my control (My control)
Everybody wants me to change (Want me to change)
They don't know that I wanna stay the same (Nah)
I've been to hospitals, they tried to fix my brain (Fix the brain)
I've been to rehab, bitch, I be stoppin' chain- (Fucking rehab)
Reactions that I've been having from the pain (Reactions)
I hope you hoes still remember my name (Remember my name)
This time I'ma break my back, and I
Can't risk that, I can't risk that
This time I'ma break my back, and I
Can't risk that, I can't risk that
Bro put me on game and I did that
Shawty only want my fame but I hid that
Bro put me on game and I did that
Shawty only want my fame, only want fame
I thought I said I can't do nothin' for you (Nothin' for you)
I thought I said that I don't wanna see you (Don't wanna see you)
Maybe one day later I'll meet you (I'll meet you there)
But not in Heaven 'cause I don't plan on goin' (Don't plan on goin' there)
Baby girl, we've been treated unfair (Treated unfair)
Sometimes I don't wanna be here (Wanna be here)
Sometimes I don't wanna be there (Not there)
I never thought I could make you care (Make you care)
I never knew I was so unaware
It's the pain that you give me, bitch, I care barely
I never thought, I could make you care
I could take you there
Baby, I'ma take you there
I never thought, I could make you care
I could take you there
Baby, I'ma take you there
From New Orleans, I wrote letters of the way I felt, but
Lost in the mail
Just like everything you've ever tell me
Lost in the mail
All these messages you've ever sent me
Lost in the mail
Lost in the mail