I can't go on forever
Living like a ghost
Permeating the pressure
And poisoning the loam
Fantasizing of failure
To let myself down slow
I need a break in the pattern
A change to spark the soul
I've been down and deserved it
My twenties tore me to shreds
And I'm not saying I'm better
But I try my best
Where do I go
When everything gets dark?
What is the plan
When planning falls apart?
Stuck in the void
I'm screaming for something
Am I reaching out
Or grabbing at nothing?
Settle my head
My nerve is on fire
Hitting the wall
I can't get much higher
Thinking to death
It takes me down slowly
Off with my head
Can't let you control me
Starved out for connection
The future has no friends
A poor attempt at protection
The walls have sealed me in
The longer that I'm in here
The more that I forget
How to grow in the silence
And let the light shine in
I can't keep living in the background
Never bright enough to burn out
Just dull not useless
Can't keep folding under myself
Waiting up to fade away
Did I lose myself
Or not know who I was?
Will I find my center
Or die slightly off?
Toeing the line of self help/self involved
I want to get better
I want to evolve
But where do I go
When everything gets dark?
Nothing to show
Tomorrow's a new start
Cover my eyes
The world is so ugly
Leave me to die
And tell me you love me