Breathe in
Breathe out
Trying not to scream aloud
I can't take this feeling
This numbness deep within
I ate too much, but I can't explain
Swear to myself it won't happen again
Lost control I can regain
Undo the memory
Remove the blame
Remove the blame
Undo the shame
Remove the blame
Undo the shame
No matter how much I beg and plead
Temptation's too much
I'm just too weak
Start a frenzy
My eyes go blind
Can't stop myself even if I try
Stare at my plate, push my food around
I'll eat a bit, then I'll wash it down
Smiling faces, part of my game
Excuse myself to unleash the pain
(Hollow...)
Worthless
Empty
Run the blade all over me
Metallic taste
Acidic coat
Fingertips shoved right down my throat
My knuckles bleed as they try to resist
Find a reason to stop
A reason to persist
Enduring life
Pursuing pain
Make me feel raw
Make me feel again
No matter how much I beg and plead
Temptation's too much
I'm just too weak
Start a frenzy
My eyes go blind
Can't stop myself even if I try
Don't need no diet, no iron will
Don't need to starve, or no magic pill
'Cause when I'm bad, got another way
To stay on track
To stay in the game
Pull me under
Just pull me under
(Hollow...)
Cleanse the darkness inside my soul
(Inside my soul...)
All the guilt that I swallowed whole
(Whole...)
Force my knees down against the ground
Purge my mistakes until they erase
Cleanse the darkness inside my soul
(Inside my soul...)
All the guilt that I swallowed whole
(Whole...)
Force my knees down against the ground
Purge my mistakes until they erase
Feed the yearning
Embrace the burning
And whispering from the voice within
Shake and shudder
Just pull me under
Submerge me in this erasure
But sometimes, I am unhappy
This is the stuff that goes unrecorded
Because I'm just...
So focused...
On losing weight
I get like that
Because I just want to drown the rest of the world out
And I don't look anyone in the eye, because I'm scared that if I do
They'll be able to see me for who I am
And I can't have that
Sometimes I just...
I wanna be free
I have to lose weight
And I don't know why, because I don't need to
I just have to because it makes me feel... alive
It makes me feel like I'm achieving something
But I know that no weight I reach will ever be enough
Breathe in
Breathe out
Trying not to scream aloud
I can't take this feeling
This failure within my skin
I'm hollow
So hollow within
I'm hollow
This emptiness within