I fell inside of you
And I ain't even try to
When I started to hdie in you
I can get so frightful
When I hide in plain sight
A monster under covers
Not the me in real life
But you could never tell
'Cause I made you feel special, yeah
Made you feel great
Made you feel love for the first time
Like it's contagious
I was only a virus
Never the cure
Fighting demons in my head
I dump 'em on you to store
When you say you love me, how you so sure?
When you say you love me, how you so sure?
I've been through hell and it's a struggle just to love myself
My mama try to teach me, but she deals with pain in herself
'Cause I hate myself sometimes
Yeah I hate myself sometimes
Being honest I acknowledge I ain't
I'm the worst, deserve to die for all of this, no no
Yeah I hate myself sometimes
Yeah I hate myself sometimes
Being honest I acknowledge I ain't
I'm the worst deserve to die for all of this, no no
Never asked to return
Never asked for this life
Never asked you to burn me
Like you did once or twice
Never quit out of rage
Hurt each other, in pain
And watched reciprocal motion
As it comes back again
When you say you love me, how you so sure
When you say you love me, how you so sure
I've been through hell and it's a struggle just to love myself
My mama tried to teach me, but she deal with pain in herself
'Cause I hate myself sometimes
Yeah I hate myself sometimes
Being honest, I acknowledge I ain't
I'm the worst, deserve to die for all of this, no no
'Cause I hate myself sometimes
Yeah I hate myself sometimes
Being honest, I acknowledge I ain't
I'm the worst deserve to die for all of this, no no
They say they are waiting on a celebration
I could dodge time, end up in the spaces
Blowing my high, on a daily basis
With this one life kept me in the trenches
Screaming why God, all this temptation
You could leave me dirty and alone, naked
With the same thing that I once had
I'd be lying if they said it's all bad
Screaming why me just ain't effective
Only one life and I could end it
But then where in the hell would I be
If I'm a monster then just leave me be
Show me the way to enlightenment
All of this torture on myself is higher order
For the pain I'm enduring could use some water
All the suffering I see has got me nauseous like
You believed me
And you know it's true
You try to leave me
And I might end it for you