I'm envious of you these days
I'm not you these days
I'm blue in ways
I get so sick of me these days
I'm not me in ways
I wish I was
I'm not devoted like you
I can't promote like you
I don't create
At your swift rate
I'm not being lazy
I'm so tired lately
I swear
I just wish I was
A better me
I'm hard on myself
I'm not good enough
I swear
I just wish I was
A better me
Ooh, ooh
I just wish I was a better me
Ooh, ooh
I wish I was a better me
If I could get passed a fear
I'd be down some tears
And have a career
If I could somehow admire you
The pure growth of you
And see mine through
I would commit like you
I would sell art like you
I would create
At your swift rate
I'm not being lazy
I'm so tired lately
I swear
I just wish I was
A better me
I'm hard on myself
I'm not good enough
I swear
I just wish I was
A better me
Ooh, ooh
I just wish I was a better me
Ooh, ooh
I wish I was a better me
And so
She gets
Declined by the creator
And so
She's left
With no self belief in her
She built
This tomb
With her own hands
And a door
Leads to
Her own break through
I'm not being lazy
I'm so tired lately
I swear
I just wish I was
A better me
I'm hard on myself
I'm not good enough
I swear
I just wish I was
A better me
Ooh, ooh
I just wish I was a better me
Ooh, ooh
I wish I was a better me
Wish I was a
Wish I was a
Wish I was a (I wish I was a better me)
Wish I was a
Wish I was a
Wish I was a (I wish I was a better me)