I haven't felt for a long time I'd take my life but it's not mine I'll sift through this gallery Of photographs and memories And desperately search for an answer And I hate the way you look through me Here's full transparency; I hate myself more than I loved you And every time you tried to help I wished that I was someone else I hate myself more than I loved you Turn around, you tower me, Shadowing my everything If that's what you want then it's alright And I'll smoke all of the pain away Until you think that I'm okay If that's your grand scheme then it's alright I'll dig a hole until my arms go numb, Watch the earth pile up If that's what you want then it's alright You're forgetting me, our memories Are worthless things you'll never need 'Cause that's what you want and it's alright If that's what you want then that's fine You notice every move I make Watching closing for the moment that I break Into flaws like fragments I can't mend Pick myself apart until there's nothing left There's something about me I can't help I'm mint condition in the box right on your shelf But you won't take me out and hold me I'm just there in case you're lonely (I've been accused, I've been accosted, I was amused, now i'm exhausted)