I never saw you An empty vessel holds the pain I caused you I blame myself for these severed endings This has always been so difficult All the times you tried and every time I wouldn't I couldn't change your fate A gravestone marks that bed you've made I wish I would have been, more apart of your life. Now I understand, why I never got to say, good bye Maybe I'm just like my father, always detached from realities of life. I'm losing sight of my family and the ones that I hold close to me Who am I really now? Do I just do this to myself? Act all alone and betrayed Am I really alone or am I the deserter? Who am I really now? I think I found the answer I'm just a clouded head With a great lack of rest I'm not really alone I'm not being betrayed This is who I really am I am the deserter I am the deserter I am the deserter