Who's diabolical idea was it to make me endure all these horrible circumstances Inconveniences, and overall who's fucking with my life? I've been trying so hard but it's feeling all for naught Why the hell are these negative things happening to me? All my life I've done my best to help others, give compassion But in the end I lost so much that's dear to me I'm about to lose my mind Why should I bother trying or even having the thought of continuing to stay around I can't even be around the one I love without the thoughts of my mistakes And what I did to cause the mindset of me not wanting to be around When I truly do I want to be with you I miss digging my feet into the sand while I feel the ocean hit my legs And I already miss seeing the beauty of nature when I travel But the most beautiful view I saw was you as I looked out the car window I don't want you go away, life nowadays is causing so much pain I promise I am here to stay