So I'll kiss them in the kitchen while you're on my mind
And I'll take a sip of whiskey and pretend everything's alright
I'll bite his lip and take a hit, say another line
I'm fine I'm fine
I'll throw up in the bathroom put my lipstick right back on
Buy a drink and start to think that maybe this is wrong
I'll pretend I'm on the mend when I hear our song
But I'm wrong, I'm wrong
I'm all out of control
I just can't let you go
The look in his neon eyes
Gives me solace late at night
So I'll fall in bed, and lose my head
'Cause when I kiss him in the kitchen it still feels wrong
I'll trick him into loving me
Until I move along
Find a different hand to hold
Inspire some more songs
He'll think he knows the way I go
Then suddenly I'm gone
Moving on, moving on
And there's days when I hate myself
More than I miss you
I'm falling through
What are these habits I can't seem to lose
I always lose myself, I lost myself