The black rainbow drags me to the surface
Where was I
What was I doing
I may never know
But each time I get too close
It spits me out again
Sisyphus drowning in a kiddie pool
I know why I'm here
I'm trying to test my limits
I'm trying to see what feels right
I'm trying to transform
Will my voice sound like this next time we meet?
Will I make it past the black rainbow?
My dreams since I was 10 have been the same
Only now am I seeing
They are connected to the part of the same world
That makes up me
Where do I hold my fear?
I can feel it when I close my eyes
But when I'm awake it obliterates me
But the black rainbow doesn't disappear
It's not about destruction
It's about acceptance
If I can't accept the black rainbow
Then what am I even left with
Measuring things measuring feelings
How do we become one with our reality
Knowing the present will become the past
And that everyday life is a treasure
Even if the moment
Might go bad
A gentle thought
I'm getting distracted
And I'm back at the pool
Waiting for the rainbow to appear
Who am I even talking to
Who am I even
Uncomfortable
That's who I am
Disconnected
Feeling small
Don't notice at all
Myself in the mirror is just a physical reflection
Negative space is just another dimension