This goes out to you, Jah
You literally saved my life
And I never got the chance to thank you for it
Without you, I wouldn't even be here
So
This is for you
Back then, when nobody understood me
I found your music while crying in my room, see
Kids at school didn't care, felt I was losing
This war between myself
It's a fucking battle with the belt
I hurt myself day and night, could never see the light
Trapped in the darkness, just thinking I should die
Then the day came, I would commit to suicide
Looking in the mirror, even hurt to blink my swollen eyes
I grabbed a kitchen knife, put the blade to my skin
Sharp end pointed at my neck like shark fin
Drunk off of depression, wasn't sipping any gin
Only seventeen, no, I didn't think that I could win
It's an art, the thought of crushing a human heart
If I died, nobody would notice I'm gone
Restart, so maybe next time I'm not lost
Choke, cough, the edge of the blade feels so soft
It's kinda funny how alive rhymes with the word die
Lately, been feeling both words at the same time
Taking my own life until I fucking flatline
Maybe then I could give you a hug up in the sky
I felt your pain, rage inside my veins
Before I heard of you, I only listened to the rain
Never smiled to my parents, yeah, they thought I was insane
Razor blade always tucked inside my pants in case I break
I, oh I
Am falling for you, falling for you
I, oh I
Am falling for you, falling for you
I, oh I
Am falling for you, falling for you
I, oh I
Am falling for you, falling for you
I see black skies, and white lies, I'd rather be
Dead, filling my head with different enemies
Thoughts consuming me, fueling my insecurities
As the ground right under me crumbles as if it wasn't there
It's too much, my heart's crushed, I'm not alive
I won't allow myself happiness 'cause it's all lies
I've seen the pain, I've run away so many times
Death and I are companions, it's here at all times
I won't love, won't trust, I won't die
I can't feel, but managed to steal your heart, love
Was dirt poor, now fuck whores and want love
It seems that anything offered could be enough, but
As time, body falls, so I don't know who to call
Alone and my heart, got tat' of it broke
I'm so fucking numb, my life has succumbed
To hatred and death alone in the snow
I, oh I
Am falling for you, falling for you
I, oh I
Am falling for you, falling for you