Mother is watching an old time movie
While Father's asleep on the couch
And Sister is still on the phone with her friends
Pacing outside of the house
And I'm in the hallway, watching it happen
Feeling a strange dissociative feeling
Watching myself as I watch them and reach out to touch
I love them so much
I, I want to go home
I want to live life in familiar patterns I already know
I want to be held by my mother and told that I am not alone
I want to go home, I want to go home
Our neighbors come over with presents and whiskey and Father pulls out the guitar
And Sister sneaks off with her friends to enjoy all the drinks that they stole from the bar
And I'm in the kitchen, watching it happen
Somehow it feels like my job to remember
All of us here together doing alright
For a moment in time
And I, I want to go home
I want to live life in familiar patterns I already know
I want to be held by my mother and told that I am not alone
I want to go home, I want to go home
Mother's adjusting her hair for the camera
While Father is teaching on Zoom
And Sister is telling them both not to worry, we'll all be together so soon
And I'm on the screen, my face in the window
Watching the world that I took for granted
If you let me survive, I promise I won't disappear
No I'll be right here
And I, I want to go home
I want to live life in familiar patterns I already know
I want to be held by my mother and told that I am not alone
I want to go home
I want to go home
I want to go home