This one's a little darker Yeah I don't have no one to come home to I don't have no one to count on I don't have anyone to call my own Nobody that I can fall down on I don't have, I don't have, I don't have no one Book a show, get the bag, happy till it's all done Come back to the city get reminded that I'm alone What do I lack that I don't stand out to no one? What do I don't have that they have? I have plenty All the shit that I get in return I'm still so empty Thought I'd be the happiest when I signed up with Fenty Going through a midlife crisis in my twenties Going out to Nobu by myself ain't satisfyin' Tired of the pain, and the hurt, and the cryin' I know I'm a man I should start actin' like one Trust me when I tell you and I promise you I'm tryin' All this "you're Houdini" shit they give me I ain't buyin' All these fucking memories they killin' me I'm dyin' Hurry just hurry 'Cause I got to get to my goal before thirty And I got some people that's dependin' on me But how do I work when you play me so dirty And why can't we just accept me bein' perfect I'm lyin' I'm not girl infact I'm the furthest I'm made from a different cloth than every person I promise I'm workin', I promise I'm worth it I promise I'm okay even though I'm hurtin' I know just how much you see and you're lurkin' I know that it bothers people I work with I know they care for my health but it worsens Maybe I just need another shisha but much stronger I don't know the time that's tickin', I know I don't have much longer And my soul is out my body and these days that thing just wanders When I die and in my casket throw that shit under the water Let it sink with all the pain this world done gave me for the longest I got like 3 different hitters posted up like I'm in congress Shit, I had a lot of dreams of wifin' you I'm bein' honest And my blood is boilin' hot like a hot summer day in august Shit Am I losin' it Am I losin' it oh, oh Am I losin' it Am I losin' it oh, oh