I have joined the long defeat That falling set in motion And all my strength and energy Are raindrops in the ocean So conditioned for the win To share in victor's stories But in the place of ambition's din I have heard of other glories And I pray for an idea And a way I cannot see It's too heavy to carry And impossible to leave I can't just fight when I think I'll win That's the end of all belief And nothing has provoked it more Than a possible defeat We walk a while we sit and rest We lay it on the altar I won't pretend to know what's next But what I have i've offered And I pray for an idea And a way I cannot see It's too heavy to carry And impossible to leave And I pray for inspiration And a way I cannot see It's too heavy to carry And impossible to leave It's too heavy to carry And I will never leave