Rotten on the inside I can't love myself Haven't washed in ages Long hair, food stains Hiding in my cave, holed up Shutting all the blinds 'Cause I Can't be like Posterboys, count calories, fuck 'em Yeah At the gates of heaven They'll tell me I'm handsome Why'd you waste your life, boy? You could have it all Daddy was disgusted Eating at my brain I don't have a jawline Hips wide, bones light Mirror staring at my flesh I can't look away Thank God I'm not like TikTok boys, big white smiles, fuck 'em! Yeah At the gates of heaven They'll tell me I'm handsome Why'd you waste your life, boy? You could have it all Yeah Rest in peace my nightmares Covering up my scarred heart Let's not waste this life boy You can have it all