I tell my boss my 5 year plan is to buy a house
I don't know maybe get my masters
Meanwhile I'm spending all my free time shooting videos and getting songs
Mixed and mastered
By the time I'm 40 wanna have one kid
And make about a K a day
That right there is my version of a 401 k
Tryna build my life my own damn way
I don't wanna work jobs i hate till the age of 60
By the time i get to live life I'm old, grey, and sickly
Then have to stare at my youth in the rear view mirror of my past like hey gramps!
Do you miss me
I still feel young, there's so much I haven't done
But can't lie I'm afraid of getting older
No kids of my own, but feel the weight of the family's future
Laying on my shoulders
I almost quit my dreams and left the city to go and be with my girlfriend
I was so worried about people saying You're pushing 30 and you're still trying to be a rapper? stop playing and go Start a family!
That's such a common Narrative, but I'm so glad i didn't let that bullshit weigh me down
But sometimes I kind of look around and I see my friends and it's like
My friend let his girl move in cause she said time is up
But he's not sure if he should wife up
Cause he don't wanna live that life, work a 9-5
Think about his dreams, and think bout how they died
I'm just tryna give you my peace of mind from time to time
You don't have to unscrew someones light bulb for you to shine
Match the work with your vision to see what you can achieve
But if your loved ones can't support then you've gotta up and leave
You used to be the person I'd run to with my accomplishments
Haven't hit me in so long convinced you got me blocked and shit
Be careful who you let close, that's stranger danger
Saddest moments are when ex lovers become strangers
To my old girl I'm sorry yeah i messed up
Sorry that i said what i said, yeah i f'ed up
And sorry to my mom's, know i don't go to church but keep me in your prayers
Cause your boy's tryna bless up
And i know this is gonna sound super corny, but do whatever it is you wanna do with your life, because it's gonna Evaporate one day, or even worse you're gonna wake up and be too old to do what it is you wanna do
And that's just ten times worse
And you know what If you're happy then be happy, but if you're not
Then do whatever it is that you need to do to make sure You get there
I don't know that's just my two cents