I remember it used to be simpler
When 1 + 1 + 1 would still equal 1
And wonders were miracles instead of probing skeptical questions i never questions faith
And never mentioned racial reconciliation
And how that relates to growing segregation in the church
I used to see things a little more black and white
A faith born of fascination being bred full of spite for both right wing and left wing
Backsliding
Picket-signing
Under mining every positive experience i've had I'm positive this is not what he had in mind
Please rewind to the beginning
And I'm starting to understand why the garden's called paradise
Cause thats what it felt like
Side by side
We walked in toe
It was better not to know
The flow of your creation read like a poem and I didn't need scientific proof
To show it was good
How could I lose the belief that not everything has to be explained
That there's beauty in what we can't understand
And even if we can
The demand for answers doesn't bring wholeness
But whole lists of new queries
Hear me when I say
I searched for truth the whole world round
And found myself right back where I started
Out smarted by geography
And only then did I see that he was waiting for me the whole time
A God in his prime
Still bright enough to outshine
Every doubt
Every fear
Every question
And transgression
And repression
Intersession working where I can't even see it
Perfect and forgiving even though I'll never be it
He sits on the throne
He rose from the grave
He walks on water that he turns into wine
And that blows my mind but it fills up my heart
And that is enough
I'm giving up
Call my bluff
Because I can't pretend to have all the answers anymore but that's your job any way
And I'll take knowing you over knowing about you anyway
Your love is the proof