Silently obsessing over the upsetting words to come Forgive me tonight I picked out a corner, I feel the sweat pouring My chest gets tight as we sit down to dine We toast, compose Pushed away the flowers and looked into those soaring eyes, those sorry eyes Begin Lean in and fire We fought loud, we fight loud Built up inside us We hold out, we held out Oh oh oh oh Forcing out the silence I'll make up for what's happening I'll make up for what's going to be I'll make it up At 17 I woke and I left behind all traces of my springtide life At 17 time were rough, but I won't deny I still haven't tried to begin to recover That 17th summer was the best I'd remember because after that summer i'd never recover That 17th summer was the best I'd remember because after that summer i'd never recover Lean in and fire We fought loud, we fight loud Built up inside us We hold out, we held out Oh oh oh oh Forcing out the silence Try, you wanted to find something inside i won't deny Holding up lights in front of my eyes I never disowned you Not in my life Try, you wanted to find something inside i won't deny Holding up lights in front of my eyes I never disowned you Not in my life