I drink on my own When I'm afraid and alone Watch the same show for hours Just to ease my mind They say you need to dive in Can't hide in superstition You need to say things out loud And embrace them But I found that I'm still the same All these therapists aim To find that trauma inside That needs releasing I'm waiting for love to recover my heart But I should know better by now I'm pushing my luck wait for signs from above To free me from these dreadful thoughts Let go of my hand I don't think I'll ever can Be the girl that you asked To be your wife I'll soldier on Till a new morning comes And it all went up in smoke again But I can't control the fire I'm waiting for love to recover my heart But I should know better by now I'm pushing my luck wait for signs from above To free me from these dreadful thoughts I'm falling apart, while there's nothing really missing It's my head that hurts the most I guess it's too hard to let go of these thoughts And I can't go back to who I was I tend to get drunk When I'm out, but don't belong And while I'm growing older I feel like moving backwards