The pain, it got so much to take So I'm packing my feelings away My heart, it just can't take the weight Suppressed 'til I don't feel a thing I broke down in my car today For the seventh time this week, it's only Wednesday There's 17 bucks in my bank I'm scared 'cause I got bills to pay My mother, she keeps calling me She's asking if I'm suffering But I just keep faking okay My dad, he knows me best I know he sees that I'm a mess He just keeps on encouraging me This life is beautiful It's messed up but beautiful And I feel alone But I know that home is holding me And this world is broken And hope feels foreign Sometimes I feel alone But I know that home is holding me I never expected all this The hurt that was bound to come But the pain got too heavy to lift So to cope with it all I just numb And my only escape is my thoughts Of a home that I'm missing so much It feels like I'm floating around But my anchor is still touching the ground This life is beautiful It's messed up, but beautiful And I feel alone But I know that home is holding me And this world is broken And hope feels foreign Sometimes I feel alone But I know that home is holding me Hold me close I don't know where I'd be without you Hold me close I don't know where I'd be without you Hold me close (Hold me) I don't know where I'd be without you (Hold me, I don't know where I'd be without you) Hold me close (Hold me) I don't where I'd be without you (I Do everything I can be without you) This life is beautiful It's messed up but beautiful And I feel alone But I know that home is holding me And this world is broken And hope feels foreign Sometimes I feel alone But I know that home is holding me This life is beautiful It's messed up but beautiful And I feel alone But I know that home is holding me This world is broken And hope feels foreign Sometimes I feel alone But I know that home is holding me