This is not a life I asked for Everyday I wake up, I'm still tired In my dreams I see figures that I seem to recognize I recognize you! It's the face that broke my heart It's the face that ignores my existence It's the voice that tells me to back off Whenever I just try to live my life The nights are getting shorter The days are getting harder And my mind blows up I wake from this broken situation That never existed And I know it shouldn't do harm But it haunts me It haunts me I seem to fade away as my soul wanders off into the distance And I stumble through a graveyard with a full set mind As the agony of myself blinds me I can see my own mistakes Crawling through my skin As it seems that my memories Pull me down deep below My own mistakes Crawling through my skin My memories Pulling me down For years and years After sleepless nights and restless days I've been wondering: Is this life even worth living? I wake from this broken situation That never existed And I know it shouldn't do harm But it haunts me I should've never fallen asleep And let the wary dreams catch me Every second that I try to forget It haunts me Intruding my mind making every contact to the social life harder It haunts me Draining my sanity and removing every lace of serenty