Should've known from the start, that I'm getting no heart
Knew the feeling all along, I was done chasing pavements
Making these statements
Tired of words that fail, and the thoughts that trail
But the feeling don't drought: kinda feel like hurting
Everything's uncertain
Yes I knew, I was a fool, white flags too soon
And my world turned blue, yet the pain? It wasn't worth it
Wanted closed curtains
Sick of days that are bleak, which tend to turn to weeks
Now my heart's oblique. No, I didn't ask for this
Now you already know it
But please believe me when I say, I've been tryna find some ways
I'm tryna run this race, but I'll get no single place ooh
Cause I know
There's someone in your heart you won't let go
Babe
I'm more than down for you to leave me in the cold
Just give me love, I'll give it back a hundredfold
But deep inside I know that I will never be
That's why I'm better off a proxy
So, please
I'm waiting right here in the corner tryna see
The plenty people that you'd pick right over me
But deep inside I know your heart wants what it wants
But I'd be happy as a proxy
Tryna find love, Tryna find peace
Tryna live life, Tryna get through shit
Tryna find you, Tryna let go
Tryna keep cool, But I can't do shit
I been laying low, getting through it all
But I never could, so I'm tryna keep close
Tryna mean the world, Tryna be your all
When in fact it's you who mean the most
I've been surviving the heartbreaks
And the clandestine feelings that stray in between
I been soul searching but heartaches and faces
Keep pushin' me into ravines
To you I'm no one but a stranger
This life is just nothing but danger
What's love, if it's nothing to savor?
It hurts that I'm not in your favor, now
Babe
I'm more than down for you to leave me in the cold
Just give me love, I'll give it back a hundredfold
But deep inside I know that I will never be
That's why I'm better off a proxy
So, please
I'm waiting right here in the corner tryna see
The plenty people that you'd pick right over me
But deep inside I know your heart wants what it wants
But I'd be happy as a proxy
Babe
I'm tired of fighting for affections that won't come
If love is pain, then it's been long since I've been numb
Cause deep inside the feeling's something that won't be
Cause all I wanna be's a proxy
So
I think I'm better on my own if that's the case
I'll be okay, I'm guessing this is just a phase
But if you're out of choices call me, I'll be free
Cause I'd be happy as a proxy
Cause I'd be happy as a proxy