I don't wanna ramble
But lately I've been pretty hard to handle
Got internal conflicts and dozens of other mental battles
I'm just nervous
And worried that I really don't deserve this
The things I've heard you say about my songs
How do I word this?
I'm insanely grateful that you all really like it
I've been kinda down in the dumps
And I've been cheating on my diet
It's a rough time, but I don't really wanna say much more
It's not enough to talk about with similes and metaphors
Like- youtube apology, I'm in a dark place
I've been trapped inside a void, barrelling out into space
And jamming with a crew like Michael Jordan in Space Jam
But a part of me is worried that it's childish like god damn
But I've got my doubts
What if they were right about everything
Yeah I've got my doubts
Maybe they were right to tell me not to sing
I'm a little worried
I'm sure you're pretty busy so I'll try to hurry
I've been feeling kind of out of touch and it's starting to hurt me
They don't see it as my passion, just a simple hobby
Had to study lofi artists daily, no one ever taught me
Joji, Tomppa, and Nujabes,
Atlas, samsa, and Verzache,
I could go on and on about people who finally got me
I just really wish that somebody believed in me
When I was younger so I could be proud of myself musically
But it's ok because that's all in the past
Now I've got people who do, and I just want em to laugh
Even though I'm pretty scared of all of this new responsibility
I'm happy that you're listening, and honestly that's all I need
So while you're here I'll just try to be real
Man I hate being serious, and that's just how I feel
Cuz honestly it's not important, I'm not cool, I'm a geek
But sometimes I fantasize about being Keanu Reeves
But I've got my doubts
What if they were right about everything
Yeah I've got my doubts
Maybe they were right to tell me not to sing
But I've got my doubts
What if they were right about everything
Yeah I've got my doubts
Maybe they were right to tell me not to sing
You say
Cuz I just wanna be myself without doubts or insecurities
And I know they're gonna knock me down
And I know they're gonna push me around
But I need to do this or I'm gonna die with a heart that always doubts