Okey I don't know why I'm sat here tonight in my bed It's snowing out and I'm here alone crying late The neighborhood is out And about celebrating the jolly good holiday vibe No way There's no way I can ever feel cozy this way December used to be my most favorite days But now my family's torn into pieces And my head's a wreck Oh what a holy mess Santa if you can hear me please Just make the pain go away I know it's Jesus's birthday and not mine Yeah but I could use some grace I just wanna have a merry merry Christmas Not drowning in the past but making memories So Santa gimme sanity sanity Could I get some of that unconditional love I don't know if I've been a good girl this year If I'm wondering then maybe I'm not But please Santa gimme sanity sanity Could I get some sanity Oh man It's a holiday and I have no energy left Like just another day in my memory lane Don't know if I can ever get out of my head And go out with my friends for some snowy mess (Yeah) I don't know if I've been a good girl this year But I'm praying in a manner so sincere I'm sincere So I'm beggin Santa gimme some sanity So I'm praying alone in my bed Down in my memory lane Everyone is out And about celebrating the jolly good holiday