Another night crying myself to bed
Another night swearing worn out promises
Another night wishing I was dead
But telling myself that there's so much to live for
When the things you read
Become real
And the lies you hear
Are knocking at your door
It takes just a second
To process it
But it takes ages just to feel it
You're in a hopeless situation
But you wanna see the bright side
So you'll turn on the lights
And pray for a sign
But it doesn't feel alright
You wanna think the future is better
And wrap yourself in a too big sweater
Disappear and make everyone forget you
I know it's true
Another day another fucking mental breakdown
Waking up to hate my life
Holding back trials and tribulations
Wondering why I even try to survive
Cuz when the things you read
Become real
And the lies you hear
Are knocking at your door
It takes just a second
To process it
But it takes ages just to feel it
You're in a hopeless situation
But you wanna see the bright side
So you'll turn on the lights
And pray for a sign
But it doesn't feel alright
You wanna think the future is better
And wrap yourself in a too big sweater
Disappear and make everyone forget you
I know it's true
Estradiol
Change my body
Make it who I want to be
In my image
Smooth me out
And help me see
The girl inside me
I've been stuck in this vessel for too long
Outdated
Insecure
And I can't go on
Something's gotta give and it ain't helping
That I gotta break my by back to be perceived
Estradiol
Change my body
Make it who I want to be
In my image
Smooth me out
And help me see
The girl inside me
And it's hard to believe
That you're a few weeks away
And all my dreams have led up to this day
Hopeless nights
But hopeful mornings
Healing starts today