Finally light wakes up my inside I was waiting you for a long time I just thought you were dead And the darkness became The new leader of ourselves But not so fast! rests of some shadows Still remain inside my mind Never letting me enjoy Always working the wall Get away I just need more time And it's now when I sink down fast through the river Of my tears but I'll be fine I was always prepared Seeing closely the end Puffing up my old lifeguard Scratching hard all of my surface Just to open up my heart I was never intend to get finally well Fog is blinding my tired eyes And it was me Who started this battle royale It was always me Who also thought this could be fine But now I'm wondering If this will shut me down for all my life I'm not afraid of suffering But I prefer to calm down All these pains smoking weed again But it's not for fun, just to hide my scars and I kind of enjoy this blackout Makes me forget you for a while It's never enough, sometimes even worse Self destruction is my part time job And I'll be waiting for this to be closed The things we let undone The things I could be doing all day long The good talks about nothing will be lost That kind of warmness in August The wetness of the lakes between the rocks Now things are written into stone Maybe the rain can try to erase The words we don't want to read anymore I hope this will be my last song about getting out of the hole