I really miss what we had right before we Both screwed it up not knowing how It's been 2 years but I just realize there's no light at The end of anywhere we'll never go back Plus collateral damages: some of my folks, They lately do tend to count me out I know it might look like I'm upset, it's not the goal, But it's just that makes me sad Then it was "the fighter", my refuge in the storm As I may think I was for her Your enemies are tough ones I get your rage, but I thought you were Sure enough I was not one of those The worst I still cry is because a non-human one My desire to live was off You always dragged me unconsciously back from the dark So this time I owe you one I make myself sick while turning forty in my friendless year