If and when I get to you, I'd tell you what I'm gonna do
I'm gonna love you like, you've never been loved before (Yeah, yeah, okay)
If and when I get the chance (Yeah you feel that) to put you in a loving trance
I'm gonna hold you like you wanna be held some more (Okay, okay)
Listen up always surprising my reflection when I'm wearing the scars
Any direction I'm flexing and now I'm testing attention, hear my intent in this message
In this inflection is bars, this new dimension I mention is me
I've come up so far
Look at me now, there's no chains I feel free
Where are there are demons, I'm leaving, feeling them undressing me
But I ain't scared of the shadows that sleep with me in my bed
So get the fuck outta my head, get on your knees instead
If and when I get to you, I'd tell you what I'm gonna do
I'm gonna love you like, you've never been loved before
If and when I get the chance to put you in a loving trance
I'm gonna hold you like you wanna be held some more
A lot of shit changed, when I was trippin' with Jeh,
Dripping with weight, away it melted, I was feeling okay
Opened my phone and recorded my voice, in time it would stay
And it would say to love yourself even when shit is insane
Use this beat as propane, pre-pessimism is past
I know my heart is opaque, but my words are like glass
So take a trip through this tunnel and shovel when you hit rubble
'Cause when you hit them air bubbles you know the struggle is ashed
Like a J that I'd love to share with all of my friends
And we would laugh about the way, I used to be back then
Trying to prove to the world that I was good from the heart
I know the world is a stage but tell me what is my part?
If and when I get to you, I'd tell you what I'm gonna do (Yeah, yeah)
I'm gonna love you like, (I'm talking to me) you've never been loved before
(Yeah yeah, I'm talking to me)
If and when I get the chance (Okay) to put you in a loving trance
I'm gonna hold you like (Yeah that's me) you wanna be held some more
I'd like to thank my old girl, who opened my soul
'Cause I know I love better than I have ever before
And I'm sorry for the times where I was selfish and dumb
I know you'd now be proud of the person that I have become
And I'd like to thank my mama, I know I can be hard
I know my bruises were worse than those I got in schoolyards
And I know you cried them tears when you thought you done failed
But don't you worry about a thing, no reason to be afraid
And I'd like to thank my homies for stitching my wounds
There's always shelter in my mind when I am with all of you
I'd like to thank all those bitches who tried to rip me to shreds
'Cause now you know who you fuckin' with so now you play defense
Contenders step forward after y'all get off of your meds
Maybe you'll live if you touch me I guess that it all depends
'Cause now I'm praying for takings, saving myself from complaining
I ain't Lion, but The King 'bout to escape from his den
Now I'd like to thank myself and this depression that talks
Confession: It's a friend but a possession that walks
Sometimes I think of my future self - to me, what would he say?
But if I die tomorrow, I know that I did okay
If and when I get to you, I'd tell you what I'm gonna do
I'm gonna love you like, you've never been loved before
If and when I get the chance to put you in a loving trance
I'm gonna hold you like you wanna be held some more