My eyes are open but the doors are shut In this dream I'm wide awake I scarred my pillow with hopes and tears Of long lost battles and mistakes I've done my time in the jail of history Writing letters black as a raven I wore the faces of all the saints But every night I wonder If I carry on then How can I ease the pain All my dying days I spend alone Maybe I can change But I cannot change my ways No forgiveness, no reward Only time that keeps me here All my tomorrows swept away By the feathers of my fear Muriel I think of you More than anything Now more than ever And if I could I would love you more But in my heart there is a Growing emptiness and How can I ease the pain In this mighty game I stand alone Maybe I can change But I cannot change my ways And the waving days go by. Will you gather 'round my sorrow To wrap me in silence Will you send me an angel Well I don't believe you I think you are lying Get out of my way These are the waving days Holy water Holy water break my fall For only water Only water can wash my soul Wash it off Cause I don't believe in love anymore Oh I hope you'll be easier on me Yes I hope you'll change your mind And I want you all to know I stood and I walked. I walked alone.