What the hell is this about?
What did I get myself into now?
One stupid slip of the tongue
Wrong words said and I look to run
Put myself in states I dread
Are those stares real or in my head?
Is this the day they let me know that I've always been a joke?
These thoughts take over tonight
Just hope I get out alright
All I know is this fucked
God damn it, please just let me sleep
This is a pace that I can't keep
Always tired but wide awake
My vision blurs and my world shakes
I'll try to quiet my brain
But it goes over the same refrain
Worry about things out of my control all of this is taking its toll
These thoughts take over tonight
Just hope I get out alright
All I know is this is fucked
All these thoughts swarm my head
Of my past, of things I did or said
Or it's the day to day
Have I grown at all or stayed the same
Am I someone that makes you proud
Or have I always let you down
These are the thoughts that never cease
Pushes me away from my peace
None of this makes any sense
Amongst friends, so why am I so tense
Fight the urge to run out the door
Keep it together just one minute more
Ignore these knots in my gut
Fake a smile so nothing seems up
Fuck it, just give me all the drinks
My brain is tired and I don't wanna think
These thoughts take over tonight
Just hope I get out alright
All I know is this is fucked