I can't say, is it night or day? I can't find my face Nothing can help me to escape from this sleepless state There is too much to bear, enough now That's enough for my blackened heart I tear apart what has been left of my heart only to get the words that I'm barely saying Can't see a thing anymore: forever closed doors separate me from my world of halftone monochrome How many times I convinced myself that I'm wrong I can't escape or get rid of this feeling I am completely alone all along I am wrong; all my words will be missed So many things left untold: it's gone So many words lost their meaning I poured my heart to this all that was misunderstood and ignored I cast off my soul I wake up and understand that I didn't even sleep The moment when I grasp where these last few years have passed Aimless walking through the wastelands of my deadly inner world The only thing I hear is the echoes of a ticking death-clock Why? Why should I live like this? Why? For my whole life I've been ruined and left for dead