It's time to put my feelings away Hoping for something better was a mistake Disgust the only thing that remained 'Cause all I've found was loathful and fake And every breath is colder I drown in frozen air Another year of early frosts that seems to never end Dead horizons will embrace my eyes again I can't remove myself from this place of death There will be a memorial of my ruined hopes Built on desperation and entombed remains of my lost thoughts How come I am so helpless? Without any senses I'm stranded here alone I tie the ropes hanging down from every tree in this place Around my throat; so I'll never feel like I'm disconnected It's time to put my feelings away Hoping for something better was a mistake Disgust the only thing that remained 'Cause all I've found was loathful and fake It took too much from me to contain my unshared emotions and feelings There is no way to get out from here though I keep every moment in my memory And I will always remember how I had the same thoughts The same room, the same place but at the age of six I'm still there but eighteen years older and now it's time to watch me fall and stop to breathe My mind plays moments in reverse I scroll my life inside my head Aghast, I'm finding that the rope Is gently wrapped around my neck My heart is fully decomposed And now it's almost lost it sense My body is numb, it's almost frozen And I keep moving to the end Now I'm here Watch me fall from the limbo to the floor There's no life left in me though it seems like it's not meant to be I see heavens are fading in layers of dirt I've been waiting for years till the last curtain falls So I'll see that the worst lies ahead 'Cause I've never felt anything more than regret There is no way out, no escape This place is death I'm still counting the days with my frail empty hands Locked up for twenty four years in this room Trapped in the past where I'm sinking alone In my anger and this hateful disgust Years pass me by I can't close my weathered eyes And I spent my last days watching my whole life from the other side Eyes are so used to dark while these blackened heavens are hanging as impending death Desolated and hopeless sense of despair Is locked inside of me With no way to release How long can I remember this with trembling in my hands? I've lived this life unloved, depressed and disregarded Eyes are glazed over once again Last heavy breath And my body hits the floor Death is all I can see My inner world becomes my tomb I won't be able to breathe again in this ugly shell Life lived in fear